Sad

Tonight is really a bad day for me.
I just hate this feeling very much.
My brain is empty, feel so sad. And I hope you by my side, but you already slept. I just can't express my feeling now. It's so painful in my heart. I don't know what to do already, can you just teach me?
I know thinking like that is very bad, but I really can't control my mind. Sorry...
What else can I give to you? Happy? Or it's just a dream.

I miss your smile, I've never see you smile happily for a time.
And I want to say, I love you.