选择

做选择往往都是最挣扎的时刻。

我还以为我们可以两个人一起度过这一切所谓的距离，可是还是没想到还是到了这种选择离开的地步。
几天了，5天了，什么借口也为你想了，电话没钱，考试，时间，需要思考。但是这些的这些需要5天来做吗?
在网上看过一个句子，伴侣最多只能顶到两天不联络，即使多生气还是伤心，还是会想念。但是想想我们呢?一个星期都可以不联络那这算什么呢。
有多少次我说过我累了呢，你也累了吧。时间拖越久，越让我感受不到你的爱，越是觉得自己是你的负累，我们就越来越远了。
一段没沟通的感情怎么继续，一直问自己，这真的是我要的日子，生活吗? 坚持了这么久，最后还是要这样吗?心里好挣扎，多的是不舍，但是又不想过这样单方面付出的生活，一直等待一个回信的日子。此时此刻我真的很不了解你，不知道你是不是已经不爱了。
分手这两个字，已经在我脑海里盘旋了5天，很无助。这几天一直在回忆我们这5年的感情，先是狠狠地伤害你，让彼此都留下了疤痕。一起去华乐Duty, 千人宴Duty, 义山Duty, 越野赛跑一起淋雨做巴士回学校，Camp Gabung一起参加了4年，中四同桌，一起讨论自己制服团体的事情，一起从学校走路去补习，Combi一起灭蚊子，去年年尾一起跟Sot Gang去旅行，虽然后来你做工，但还可以每个星期陪我去看戏，到我去NS，每个周末最期待的拿电话时候，虽然没讲电话，但是只要信息就已经很温暖。直到现在，差异这么多了。
其实我的要求也没很多，就只是沟通。这样很难吗?
可是无论多不舍，选择还是得做，痛苦的事实总比甜蜜的谎言更好，我只是还没有勇气去面对突然间一个人的失落感。


不是不爱了，只是不知道如何继续爱。
是时候，做个对彼此都好的选择。

Dental Appointment 3 3 3 !

距离我带牙套的日子又更近了。

今天拔牙，本来是做好心理准备一次过拔三颗牙(现在想起来都觉得自己好勇敢) xD
可是到了诊所，我躺着，看到那些仪器，大针小针啊又很怕很怕开始想很多
牙医来，然后就问我，今天拔牙哦?我就只是说嗯。

尽量让自己冷静放松， 好的 我还以为牙医会继续完成抽牙根再拔牙，
没想到他拿着strawberry味道的膏擦在我的牙龈，然后开始打麻醉针==
一共打了四针，我大概猜想是在拔牙处的两边。
在第四针时，我觉得特别痛，就告诉自己"这一点痛算什么"
然后就觉得还好了

牙医继续上个星期的抽牙根，今天算是结尾。
然后就开始拔牙，他拿着大大个类是钳子的东西，然后就在我的右下牙开始死命的拉，扯，推，我什么都没感觉到，就只是感觉到他很用力在拔他，那种感觉很geli恶心不懂为什么，终于拔出来了，看到我牙齿好长 :p
到第二颗是右上的牙齿，应该是这个牙齿比较有力， 牙医花比较多时间。
拔完了我还以为牙医 会继续在我左下牙龈打针，再拔，没想到他竟然说"好了，我们几天后见，再帮你拔另一边，然后再下次就可以带牙套了。" 我好奇为什么不要一次过拔，但是那时咬着gauze 不想讲话，笑笑就离开。

又付了RM300,然后约了两天后的appointment，打给妈妈来载我说话时很难说话，好像小孩子。
接下来的几个小时因为麻醉药还没消，血流出来我也没感觉，每次流到颈才快快去擦哈哈哈。吃东西还可以啦，可是嘴巴到现在还是有血腥味 TT 还有突然间牙齿有两个洞感觉怪怪的，我又感觉轻了点 :p

今天又松了一口气。又过了一个APPOINTMENT.

Dental Appointment 2

 熬过来了。

今天是去抽牙根，因为门牙旁边的一颗牙齿已经宣布死亡。蛀得很厉害 :O
其实抽牙根也没想像中那么痛。
只是麻醉针注射的时候会痛,但是后来我的牙齿发生什么事就感觉不到了。

整个过程中我都让自己尽量闭着眼睛，因为真的很怕看到那些器材。
可是还是有忍不住开眼睛看看，看到那些针啊，都往牙齿里面塞塞塞都不懂塞什么，可是都不痛好开心。

就这样开着嘴巴一个小时，除了嘴巴酸，也没什么了。
下个星期就收尾，还要打多一次麻醉针，然后就开始拔牙。一共是三颗，可是要不要一次拔完医生叫我自己决定，又是个难做选择的时候。想快点弄完，又怕不能承受那个痛。

自己估计应该多三个星期就会戴上牙套了。huhu......

Dental Appointment 1

It has been 756549845 days since I've posted a post in this blog page :/ Just so lazy.

Hahah by the way I started to went for dental check-up last week for the sake of my braces.
Jeng jeng ~ I was been so unwilling to visit the dentist, I have this phobia since I'm 7 but my teeth seriously needs braces.
So the dentist make an X-Ray for me, come close to it it looks darn terrible.
And he also make a mole for my teeth, my mouth has to forced to open that wide (My mouth already so big they still wanna widen it TT )

So, after the X-Ray, one of my teeth in front needs to do a root canal treatment, haih I always have to do one extra step than anyone else.
Tomorrow is 2nd appointment and I'm starting with the root canal.
Super scare the pain that I can't bear ;(
I need courage......



Can I sleep tomorrow while the treatment is going on ?

Olympic Day Fun Run 2012

Rainy Sunday morning.

We suppose to reach WM lrt station before 6.30am

But both of us woke up at 6.38am

Called each other. And she told me we seat her car to Dataran Merdeka since we are late.

Waited her car at the lrt station

So SHOCKED when saw her driving :/ 

And of course with DaddyNg beside her hehe.

Steady.

We reached about 7.30am. Saw the first badge running

Darn we were so nervous.

Quickly put down out bags we even forget to pin our numbers on our shirt.

Then the people there asked us to pin before we get our ribbons.

BRRRRR they already released our category. We were late. 

But still get to run at last.

Ngek ngek >)

 Managed to chase YOESJ and Nelson up.

There were walking -.- 

Walk and run. Jog and talk. 

We finished at 9am then since there is nothing to do,

so lined up for free drinks !

WHEEE I was so excited when I saw Milo booth there.

But the queue is way too long :3

Then line up halfway we realise that we are on the Ribena line.

ASDFGHJKL

It's okay we continue our queue. 

OKAY the cup is SO SMALL so we took 4 cups for each of us hahahah 

All in blue. I'm the only green. 

 

Ini orang changed his selipar. 

Good walking exercise he have today. Hehe

After that we have our brunch in McDonald.

Sausage Muffin (Y)

I'm a 7km finisher at 1hour04minutes34seconds !

Well, there's still rooms of improvement.

*

Tomorrow is Sports Day !

I'm a little excited since this is the last year we take part.

Hmmmm all the best, athletes. 

No pain, no palm; no thorns, no throne; no gall, no glory; no cross, no crown.

Hmmmm + u,

I will remember :)

Shopping. Broke.

Hello today is Sunday.

Went for a little shopping after church

Planned to watch movie 第一次

But it didn't show. 

Went in MPH 

Saw this reading ring.

I can't believe my eyes cause I just saw this little creativity thing in Facebook last night.

And today I found it. yeah wuuhoo (Y)

See. Next time I can read book comfortably in my bed ngek ngek >)

 It is RM5 only ! 

 Seriously my blackheads are getting worse.

I really need it. And I hope it really helps. 

RM10.95

Hahah bought this stupid thing too.

Plant grass on it's head. Cute huh :p

 

 *

 I used up quite a lot of money today :/

I'm broke. Gotta save back my money.

 

 

Okay saringan tmrw. I am nervous but I didn't practice at all. 

All the best lah :) To everyone.

God loves us

He loves you and me.

Four-in-One

 

 -Kem Gabungan 2012-

28.05.2012-30.05.2012

Hello ! Think I should start my blog post with this picture.

 Well, in this two weeks holiday, 

I start with my school uniform bodies camp.

This is the 4th time I attend Kem Gabungan.

Facilitator. A not bad experience.

 

Been arranged into this group. 

法国面包

This group is special :

One and only girl

And the others, this is the first time they enter school camp.

Hard to handle them sometimes. The facilitator just need to be more patient :p

But they have their cute sides also.

They like to eat. EVERY MEAL they will ask for more rice.

We keep laugh. Sometimes we even play together.

And I like our group slogan much. 

It is simple though a little lame.

But with hearing everyone shouting our group name or slogan,

I feel a little satisfied :p

 

We play station games together.

And also physical test.

 Okay this one random d. KRS team got the first place in Kawad Kaki Competition :)

The very first time I think.

Proud of you all ! 

 Thank you cute little group members. And also the very co-operative facilitator partner.

 Hope they learn something in this camp. And hope it brings good memories to them.

As I didn't did my facilitator job so well. 

Keep in touch yo 小朋友们 ;)

法国面包 wuuuuu~

 

 -Sarawak 5 days 4 nights trip-

31.05.2012-03.06.2012

Right after the camp, we all head to Sarawak to attend our most LOVELY teacher's wedding.

Jon & Fel

 I've known them since I was primary 5 or 6.

They've accompanied the teenagers throughout their most difficult pathway.

And they share their experience to us.

They brings many wonderful memories to us.

The most important is, they always bring us back into God's words.

Now, I feel so glad that we are able to witness their wedding. 

 

Our cute DADDY.

 

Our kind MUMMY.

 

We grouped a praise team. 

 Promises.

最感动就是能看着他们踏上婚姻这条路上

也可以一起见证上帝给他们这幸福的婚姻。

 

Their wedding dinner.

 

Everybody dressed very pretty and handsome that night.

 

Daddy & my brother.

They accompanied me to Sarawak.

After their wedding, they bring us visit some of the places.

Really feel sorry for them cause they should be resting at home after their big day but then they still bring us out. 

:')

Thank you.

 

 Cultural Village. Kuching, Sarawak.

Enjoyed it very much.

Manage to learn more things about Malaysia Culture.

 Crocodile Farm. 

FYI, we waited from 1.30pm to 3pm just to see the crocodile feeding.

And yet when we are watching halfway, I slept.

HAHAHAH I'm sorry but they used half an hour to just feed the crocodile.

And the crocodile also lazy lazy one. Not gan jiong also. 

:p

 

 "Daddy & Mummy" 

 Thank you for bringing us round and round in Kuching. 

God bless you two :)

"Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy. It does not boast. It is not proud. It is not rude. It is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrong doing. It does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, trusts, hopes, perseveres." ~ 1 Corinthians 13 

 

-Karmen's sweet 17-

 June 5th is my birthday ! Wheeeeee

Above is my first cake this year. 

Bought it in Kuching, also celebrate it in Kuching.

 

They suprise me.
No lah actually I guessed it already cause the Aries Ong act so weird that night.
:p

Hello he is the real birthday boy that day.

03.06.2012 Kingley Ong sweet 18.

So we celebrated together :)

ting shuo she is the planner. 

xie xie ni yo <3

Free pose and everyone's crazy !

:D

Fruit Cake.

This is from the Pattem Lai

Pakat with my brother and there's another suprise.

Actually my brother already told me ngek ngek >)

Then mum bring us for lunch in Johnny's.

After lunch I go and meet my BESTIES.

This is from Aries & Paris :)

Actually they bought four.

But we finished it at Papa John.

Hehe

They bring me shopping. I'm happy and we know it.

 

Sampat as usual.

Great time.  
THANK YOU for everything !

Went to tuition after that.

Emmm then after tuition while waiting for my brother's tuition class dismiss.

Daddy bring me for late dinner.

HEHEHE Pak Kin Pat Sun.

^_^

 

Well, this is not suprise.

Cause I told them to buy for me :p (but I'm just joking)

They bring 18 candles home.

Gosh please I'm only 17 SEVENTEEN.

Btw,

 

Thank you yar ! + Shirley jiejie

 

 -Kuala Lumpur Music & Light Festival-

07.06.2012

 Due to someone's recommend, and a post in a group.

Suddenly so wanna go this WGC so desperately.

Search for it's detail everywhere, watching it's video...

And finally,

 KLCC The Esplanade.
WHEE
You know ? You understand my feelings ?
Hahah.


Mostly all of the pictures is captured by me.
It is a Music & Light Festival,
of course there will be a band.

 

International Concert

Hmmmm 3 bands performed that night.
One come from Indonesia, another from Korean and last one don't know from where.
Like the violin part most ! Super cool.

The video-mapping.
So 3D


 
Dancing Fountains.
And a little Laser Display.

 

 Somehow the lightings and fountains makes me feel like I'm in Disneyland.

Got that feel ? Got right got right ! HAHAH.

 

 Is crowded.

And look up. You noticed the food court ?

I think there will be a better view.

Should have go there can seat, can eat and can watch.

:p

 Fireworks & Pyrotechnic

The spectacular view.

With me inside :)

Well, it is still cool to me but a little beyond my expectations.

Many of things I didn't see or maybe I just didn't notice la.

Like the Sphere Displays, Water Screen Displays.

And the LED screen.

See this

They say it is the longest LED wall in Malaysia,

but then I still think it's short. hehe expect too much.

This day ended with crowded LRT station. 

Super crowded.

* 

Erhem, I think my holiday is all about this.

It's an enrich holiday for me.

All about God's blessings. 

Be thankful ! ;) 

And I bet this is the longest blog post I've ever wrote.

HAHAHAHAH.

 

Never blame a day in you life.

Good days give you happiness, bad days give you experience.

Both are essential to life, 

all are God's blessings.

Stay Tuned ! :)

I'm sorry. YOESJ